rushed fr ms wong's wedding to e airport.. n i'm now stil at e airport using e wireless service here.. no wonder changi's e top airport in e world.. hahax.. ms wong's wedding was really sweet.. so sweet tt e gals promised to hav their weddings at e beach too.. hahax.. i wan tt special sumone to cum in a yatch!!!! oh mianz.. beach wedding is so cool..
anyway aileen told me tt it's NOT true!! he DUN lyk me!!!! YEA!!!! shld hav told me eariler.. i wun b teased at for 1 day lohz.. damnit.. seems lyk they played truth or dare.. n of coz he was asked e usual qn.. n tt person is NOT me.. YEA!!!! so STOP teasing me!!!!
haiz~ actually i'm aso not v enthu abt going korea.. but i'm here waiting for e gates to open so i cld board e plane.. sum ppl juz freaked out til their soles came out!! lolx.. so every1 was frantic n V kauisu.. i was pissed.. n i TOOK MY OWN SWEET TIME.. aft all i'm so dead tired fr tt sentosa-to-changi trip..
bin agruing wif ostaf over e not-so-certain-frenship issue for a day.. ya ya everyone say they dun feel wad they say.. kou shi xin fei.. blah blah blah.. empty tok lahz.. u'll nv noe lohz.. haiz~ juz hav dis feeling deep inside tt they HATE me.. esp HIM.. ARGH!! juz let me get outta ur life lahz.. dis one wk wld b great.. a wk w/o me.. how nice.. u all shld really go out..
if wad ostaf n ananab r saying is truth den make me feel special.. or juz make me feel as if i'm part of e grp.. n definitely NOT INVISIBLE!!!!
..jUz pRoVe iT tO mE.. n i'Ll bLiF u..
NH Open Hse
ananab called me early in e morn to ask me to go to sch for e open hse.. claiming tt they nid help.. but do they eva nid me.. e anw is NO!!!!
damnit lahz.. arrive there to discover tt there's nth to do.. can't they handle it themselves.. wldn't they b happier w/o me.. it's juz lyk i'm invisible.. i hate tt feeling.. lyk i dun exisit.. tok to them but no one anw.. my opinions r juz nth but air.. when i started toking i'm told to 'shut up!' wad is dis?! i shldn't even b there lohz..
lucky 4o1s r ard.. phew! saved me fr all e awkwardness.. n invisibility.. i no nid to pretend tt i do not exisit.. ppl respond to me when i tok lohz.. not lyk sum ppl.. so spent almost half e day at e maths booth.. bugging fy n qm.. solving maths puzzles n challenging ourselves.. xl was commenting tt 4o1s r all xperts.. coz we solved so much of e puzzles there.. i solved 2 though.. n tt took a V LONG time..
aft it rained we hid into e dsign studio.. had a TERRIBLE time there.. wanted to tok but was 'shut up' by sum ppl.. tok to e min. ostaf said it's e last time we cld stay 2gether n tok lidat le.. but i wasn't even given a chance to enjoy tt.. i'm juz so left out.. i'm so outta e grp..
i dunno y i treat them as frenz when they treat me lyk shit.. shldn't frenz trust n lyk each other? i juz dun c it in them.. it's lyk they destest me.. ostaf called me aft they left sch w/o me for dinner.. i turned down e offer dun wanna spoil their dinner.. y did i even recognise them as frenz?!
juz say it.. n i'm outta ur life
Grad Tea @ Hilton
so got up rather early to fit in e lens.. but juz as xpected i took a really LONG time.. in e end was late.. n blur me 4got to bring stuff.. ARGH!!! but sum1 was even later den me lohz.. aileen was a bit buai song.. but nvm shell stil came in time to help me make-up.. but nope her fren xin hui did.. wa.. a v gd 'make-uper'.. professional! so there was glitter on my eyes, pink cheeks n glossy lips..
den went up to e 3rd floor n started snapping snapping n snapping.. god! every1 was so well-dressed lohz.. n many ppl spend $$$ on their hair lohz.. but zy's one was v well done.. n cheap too.. ching li's one was gorgeous.. n there were lotsa pinkies in my class.. n i was one of them.. i look lyk a wedding cake summore.. ARGH!!!
ok so we were seated at table1 n e whole thing started wif sum LAME games.. e mc's eng is worst den mine.. half e time dunno wad he's toking.. guess all e nan hua gradutes b4 2000 r lidat.. hahax.. but nveless.. ah hua was v enthu in e games.. wif veron ard hu wldn't b?!
one of e games was to dress one of our frenz up in black n white.. tt terrance ar.. god!!! all guys muz b damn disgusted by him.. but he v comical tt's y he won lahz.. but yan chen look so nice lohz.. luv e wings
den got e food n everything.. Q so LONG!!! din eat much lahz.. but was quite full aft a few plates.. aft e food was games again.. dis time everyone went CRAZY!!!! human chain lohz.. all started wif 4o1 lahz.. form a great long human n walked ard e whole ballrm.. aft tt every1 joined it n it was havco.. sum escaped outside.. dun wanna b involved..
oh 4got to mention tt there was a segment where 2 classes showed their class video.. nah.. my class one beta.. *ah bish! hahax.. but lucky qm din bring it today n show.. if not i'll cry n smudge my make-up.. ya so din cry today lahz..
in e middle of e crazy dance (it was grad tea turned disco) wanted to take foto wof my 大侠s but den tt toopid ananab!!!! go home so early.. ^%#@$^%# HURMPZ!!! so oni e remaining 4 of us took lohz.. beta den nth.. den found out tt zy has e same shirt as sum1 hahax.. oni tt his is black while zy's white.. tink he look nicer.. i min e black one..
n table 1 won e bears!!! yeah!!! coz we v enthu lahz.. n ms wassan was aso on our side.. xl got e title of mr nan hua.. lolx..
den aft tt sang auld lang sang n e sch song for e last time wif kegan leading.. yuppx was rather touching.. fought hard to kip e tears.. dun wanna smudge e make-up..
den aft tt took a class foto n went out.. had a difficult time deciding where to go.. tt's e thing abt 4o1.. haiz~ even xl was mad.. in e end went suntec pizza hut.. me shell, zy, qm n fok (fok came wif us) sat at a table.. tt wee cheng so fast started calling fok kah hon le.. so rude.. no matter wad he was stil our teacher mahz.. fok paid for e lasagna which was extremely chessy.. god! he luv chesse lohz.. eat chesse lyk drinking water.. den every1 bcum superstars signing e back of e bears.. hahax so fun.. but quite sad lahz.. aft tt i was v tired le so go home.. gav aileen one last hug b4 going.. haiz~ damn sad
..he's oni my gor n will always b..
whoa.. aft 2 continous days of chalet+camp.. i'm finally back.. haiz~ damned tired but stil muz blog.. heex..
Day 1- Chalet
met aileen @ abt 7 @ nite.. went for dinner den boarded e train to pasir ris.. aft a LONG journey we arrived to c all e listless looks on everybody's face.. no one was in e mood for anything aft e 1st day (we went on e 2nd day coz aileen wasn't free on e 1st) den lotsa ppl left.. ju, zy-aiya my whole chic left.. damn sad.. haiz~ den cldn't slp coz of e crampy situation.. aileen was even more upset.. coz of e 'squatter settlement' lahz.. wanted so much to play mahjiong but kegan informed me tt every1 was tired fr playing mahjiong e nite b4.. haiz~ so me n aileen spend e whole nite at e breakwater.. toking.. we managed to catch sum winks n i managed to get e toilet gang to play mahjiong wif me though.. nah.. din win at all.. i kip throwing e tiles n clar kip eating them.. yesh.. i'm 'fed' him well n he won most of e time..
Day 2- Wild Wild Wet + camp
in e morn went wild wild wet lahz.. actually say e whole 4/1 wanna go de.. in e end oni 5 of us went- me, aileen, kegan, shee yong n kuan yee- but nvm it was FUN!!! e 2 guys wore TRUNKS.. god.. so daring.. while i wore a shirt over my swim suit.. e ular-lah rawkz.. e 5 of us were seated in dis cirular float a went down dis slide lahz.. SCREAMING lyk hell.. kegan's scream is lyk so funny lohz.. den tt u shaped thingy (which i obviously 4got e name) was damn shiok.. but i oni got to play it once (wif kegan) coz got lotsa ppl..
aft tt tired ALL e rides.. even e playgrd n e skyrider.. n time was running late so i requested we hav lunch n i hav to leave.. e others cont playing till 4 lohz.. took sum fotos wif e guys in trunks but kena del by me.. sobbx.. damn guilty lahz.. sorry it wasn't on purpose..
aft wild wild wet.. RUSHED to sch for e camp.. oni to b 'bullied' by e 4 of them.. tt toopid ananab tricked me.. ask me go to guard dis fuel cell car till sunset.. n it's oni 4++ den lohz.. dun xpect me to watch it till 7.. actually i.. i min we.. were supposed to b doing e car.. showcasing it during e open hse.. but coz i came late i missed out EVERYTHING.. ARGH!!! but fig out i'll b more of a trouble den help lahz.. so juz leave it to them lohz..
den stomach was a bit upset lahz.. mayb bcoz of e lack of slp n everything.. den mrs ong was asking me to go home.. but how can i?!
den it's e bbq.. nah.. sec4s din go e bbq-ing dis time.. waiting to b served.. hahax.. 2 of them wanna 报仇.. coz last yr they bbq-ed for everyone but din get to eat themselves.. so dis yr they.. i min we.. played bridge n waited for e juniors to bring e food to us.. a bit mean lahz.. but since we r seniors we got e priviledge..
e teachers brought their children.. so cute lohz.. esp e gals.. they r gd frenz n e lil guy was a bit left out.. gav them light sticks n they were SO delighted.. hahax.. played wif them lahz.. e 2 gals i min.. poor guy.. too bad all e gor gors there damn lan lahz.. dunno how to play wif him..
aft bbq was treasure hunt.. got into jian he's grp which didn't hav a sec4.. got it all wrong fr e start lohz.. e clue damn lame.. but lucky i was smart enuff to guess it.. hahax.. e grp owe it to me for solving e clues.. *ah bish.. 不要脸..* den e guys ran damn fast lahz.. esp tt jian he.. lucky i got a bit of stamia if not.. DIE..
despite e mixing up we were v one of e v 1st grp.. coz we solved e clues fast.. n ran fast.. but we got held up at 4o6 lahz.. toopid clue pasted at a not v noticeable place.. got 2nd lahz.. aft heng wei's grp hu din even get all e clue.. hahax he dunno wad's 'millipede heaven'.. aiya hu ask u nv listen to me.. i spend 3mths in tt 'heaven' lohz.. ananab! u owe me!
aft tt dan tiring hunt.. bathed n sat ard for ghost stories.. wasn't v scary lahz.. aft tt go for movie marathon.. watched princess diaries till half when e guys came in n disturbed.. (they were watching e eye2 in e other rm b4 tt..) ARGH!!! den changed to garfield.. odie damn cute lahz.. but tt aso din end well coz it was a priate one n it stopped b4 everything ends..
they wanted to watch e exortists.. damn freaky movie as told by aileen.. but i was really tired le so go slp.. when i was juz abt to slp i heard calls fr downstairs.. it's e 4 guys.. they were lyk lying on e floor downstairs n looking at e cloudy-not starry-sky.. i was toking to them on e baconly lahz.. too tired to join them n i slept aft tt.. den at 3 suddenly e lights in e rm went off.. damn freaky lohz.. i was alone summore.. n it all turned out to b them.. ARGH!!! startled woked up n saw them LUFFING outside.. ok nvm.. aft tt went back to slp oni to b woken up by them AGAIN at abt 7.. toking of me being e ghost.. it's more lyk they R e ghosts disturbing me.. ARGH!!! 2 times in a nite lohz..
DAY 3- camp+class closure
in e morn actually got jog de but was cancelled by ostaf.. saw jun n started toking to her.. sorta neglected them.. hahax.. but they'll b glad.. aft tt go dsign studio n listen to crap.. fed up n left.. found 4o1 ppl while sitting @ e canteen waiting for aileen's skirt (4got to pack a skirt in lahz.. toopid ostaf nv remind me).. aft tt went to hall to listen to e procedures of registering into a jc..
aft tt went back up to class.. sat back into our old places n got our certs n grad bk.. was supposed to b in colour but turned out to b yellow.. mdm sia played 'partings' wif us aft tt.. damn sad lahz.. esp e last part where u hav to cut e rope which signifies e parting but'll kip a part of 4o1 wif us n sth lidat.. but we din wan tt to happen n tired really hard to untangle e mess.. n we did.. so does tt min tt we dun really part?
aft e game watched qm's video for e class.. damn touching lahz.. cried for e 2nd time aft e prelims.. i'm gonna miss them.. aft e whole video everyone was teary lohz.. n e MAD hugged 2gether n cried.. sobbx..
aft tt quickly went back to camp.. nth much le.. lyk wasted e 2nd day.. n aft all tt crying i wasn't really in a gd mood..
e highlight of e day was chang's farewell lahz.. we really got her surprised but e org wasn't really gd.. she cried lohz.. haiz~ sad..
aft e whole thing i came home n went to collect my contact lens.. spend almost an hr in e shop trying to learn hot to put it in.. kip blinking b4 it got in lohz.. ARGH!!! gonna spend hrs tml fitting it in..
toking abt tml.. he's not free le.. he got varnay mahz.. haiz~ toopid me getting jealous over a afahan hound.. but she's really gorgeous lohz.. so muz wait till aft i cum back fr korea ba.. haiz~ so tink tml aft e tea go out wif class ba.. tt is if there's really an outing..
..u cAn'T pReTeNd tT nTh's hApPeN n nIEtHeR cAn i..
Shopping Spree!!!
whoa.. spend $48+$15 today.. went far east bought clothes.. Pink n white hahax.. quite nice lahz.. but v ex aso bought shell a bracelet for her b'dae.. saw lotsa ppl.. everybody's going shopping n preparing for e grad TEA.. saw suan hwee.. xiu ling.. kok swee..
nope i din go chalet today.. coz aileen wanna go wild wild wet on Mon.. so bo bian i've to miss a bit of inno on mon lohz.. i juz dun wanna miss e treasure hunt.. wanna c how gd their hunt can b as compared to last yr's.. e chalet xplains y i'm here typing.. coz NO ONE's ONLINE!!!
o's over le.. wad r u gonna do?! while sum 漫无目的.. i shall meet my old fren n he shall bring me to e animal world.. can't imagine we toked abt dogs til late nite yest.. he luv szchanzers n SO DO I!!! actually wanna xchange fotos to c how much we changed over e yrs.. but i suggested to kip e suspense till 24th.. den he 'nx time oni my foto can b there (display pic..)' OMG! he's stil as cheeky as b4.. he beta lend me his warriorland.. hahax.. yuppx.. there's stil so many things abt him i can rmb.. mainly bcoz we share common interests ba.. he showed me his afahan hound.. oh mianz.. it's beautiful.. tt balck coat.. GOD! so well-groomed.. it muz b a difficult job training such a huge dog.. aiya.. dunno he's as shuai as b4 anot..
o's over le.. it's over btw us too.. it was a BIG decision to tell him.. haiz~ he's upset.. i'm upset too.. told him yest.. giving him 2 days to tink abt it.. dun wan e 2 of us to feel akwkard i tink.. it sure hav a big impact on me.. though there's sum1 beta but there's stil dis sense of emptiness.. lyk sth's missing.. i dunno if he feels dis way but since he wan it to end dis way den it's his choice.. i anything de.. i actually enjoyed 'da gd times'.. mayb he feels tt i'm all FAKING IT ba.. but nope.. it's not fake at all.. it's juz me telling him wad i've always wanted to tell him but was not able to do so b4.. mayb he feels tt i'm v jian zha.. to use dis despeakable mtd.. but since he's unable to listen to me when i'm hu i am i've to try another appoarch.. i really hope he can understand.. i stil hu i am.. i'm stil here.. juz trying another mtd for u to accept me.. actually i dun wanna hav it back.. i wan it to cont.. frenz?
..actually it doesn't hav to end here..
IT'S OVER!!!!
hahax.. ya last paper le.. was lyk hip hip hurraying aft tt.. shalln't tok abt papers shall tok abt my laptop!!! yesh!!! it's FINALLY repaired.. though there's stil a bit of fault at e top.. hahax.. so damn happy getting it back.. ananab i can dl ur songs le!!!!
lalala~ can't wait til inno camp n e 24th.. camp seem so nice as promised by teng.. hahax.. but i'll oni b going in e evening.. coz i wanna go Wild Wild Wet.. hehex.. so wun b going chalet tml.. sun den go.. 24th ar.. it's not e grad tea i'm looking 4ward to but e event aft tt.. bin out wif 4guys b4.. dunno y feeling so nervous n jumpy when it cums to going out wif 1 guy.. ARGH!!! so looking 4ward to c him.. so long le.. lucky he stil dun hav a gf.. juz got rejected sum more.. erm.. it's not supposed to b gd news.. hahax.. but it's so long since i've tt 志同道合 de feeling.. yupx.. he's a dog luver lyk me.. n he's gonna bring me deep into e animal's world..
will b so bz nx wk.. bz PLAYING!!! chalet.. camp.. n KOREA!!! still can't fig out y he chose camo in e 1st place.. mo fei.. ok nvm.. mayb there isn't a chalet in e 1st place..
hahax.. really can't wait..
..iT'S bIn sO lOnG..
take flight
nah.. i can't say i wun b studying eng anymore.. e fact is i'll stil will.. stil hav GP in jcs mahz.. actually today's compo title was 'flight' but most of us wrote abt a runaway story.. heez.. glad i was able to tink of a story.. quite lyk e ending actually.. but no one tot of actually writing abt a
flight of stairs..
compre's a bit tough.. even e 'shaving' i aso dunno how to answ.. actually a lil time saved i go say lotsa time saved.. haiz~ but summary was stil ok.. hope to at least get an A2..
aft e papers.. when to dsign studio.. ostaf giving treat.. cannot dun go.. so had lunch wif e 4 org of e camp.. e 4 of them seem to remind me how e 4 of us used to org e camp last yr.. haiz~ those were e wonderful days.. they'll bcum wonderful frenz tt u can b sure.. took a look at e camp schedule.. oni 2D1N.. poor 'expert' hav to miss e 1st day which is full of fun!!!! he going class chalet mahz..got treasure hunt worz.. reminds me of e one we org last yr.. haiz~ tot it was so perfect den a grp actually solved it in 20 min.. poor us.. put so much effort into it.. too bad sum ppl wun get to play.. den at nite got movie marathon worz.. tt's for them.. we (sec4s) r gonna hav 'dai di marathon'!!! lalala~ hahax.. e gambling king wun b there so i'll hav increased chances of winning.. den aft lunch saw tt they were org e grps.. actually wanted to hav e sec4s as one grp but ostaf say muz separate to increase bonding.. den ok lohz.. haiz~ juz dun put me wif sum idiots..
haz.. juz luv my cca.. not bcoz it's interesting but bcoz of e ppl in it n e wonderful memories it has left me.. put SOOOO much effort in bringing it up n watching it grow.. (in e end got
B3.. ARGH!!!) now tt most of e members r bonded to it.. i feel so happy.. wad a pity tt e 'wonderful frenz' i've made e last yr while org e camp n stuff r so distant fr me now.. haiz~
nVeNdInG pAsSiOn
NO MORE SOCIAL STUDIES!!
yesh! today's paper is DA LAST ss paper i'm doing.. YEA!!! no more link here link there n weigh here weigh there.. n my sis's rm is getting packed wif lotsa stuff.. coz upon completing a paper i dumped everything regarding e subj to her rm.. muhahahahah.. *evil*
but today's ss paper isn't as ez as we tot.. though e chapts we predicted came out but e qn were diff fr wad we were used to do.. SBQ e last qn so guai lan.. 'how far..' aiyo.. dunno how to anw.. dun even noe nid to cross anot but i juz cross lahz.. den SEQ.. all sec3 de lohz.. we hav wasted 1 yr listening to mdm sia!!!! lucky wad she had eva tot nv really went in.. heez.. was tore btw whether to do japan or swiss in e end did swiss coz japan part a not really sure.. tink swiss 1st part can sorce.. oni 4get to weigh but at least got link.. 2nd part ar.. die le.. 'high income is e most impt'.. i dun even noe y izzit e most impt how i convince e marker it's e most impt?!
ok 4get it work hard on geo ba.. lyk ms ang said.. geo is easier to score den ss.. (wonder how hist ppl survive..)den aft tt went home le.. while sum ppl tink tt it's e end of e exams le n went out.. though e rest of dis wk lyk no nid study de.. (eng, maths n amaths) i stil feel safer to do a bit of maths n mayb look thru my compo mistakes.. haz..
on e bridge (when going home), saw dis REAL BIG bug!!!! siang yong claims it's a blue bottle sth.. we went SCREAMING lohz.. aiyo! 失态ar!!! boys bhind were luffing.. but u noe how big izzit anot?! abt e size of ostaf's thumb?! hahax.. den siang yong made a comment: "it's funny how we fear things tt r even smaller den e size of our palms" no lohz.. i feel tt e smaller it is, e deadlier.. take viruses for eg.. so tiny yet so deadly..
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一年前的今天
1st Nov 2003.. wad were u doing.. where were u? on dis every day last yr.. i had e greatest achievement of my life.. made e greatest frez.. (hu weren't so great now..) haiz~ time realli flies.. actually i made a dedication to 933.. but i was too bz studying tt i did not listen to it.. lil tt i expect tt my frenz wld.. guessed oni jun did.. n she called me aft she heard it.. but when i switched it on it was too late.. haiz~
anyway had e 1st paper today n it's CHI.. e invelgilator forwas an indian n a v blur one.. dare to cum in w/o anw n qn bklet!!!! ARGH!!! made us wait for 20 min b4 we can start.. n e compo paper today did not hav narrative n poor shell hu is so used to riting narratives had to rite an agruement.. aft tt she was damn scared she wun do well.. n i had a HARD time encouraging n cheering her up.. scared it'll affect e nx paper mahz..
paper 2 invilgilator was an indian AGAIN!!! but dis time came a smarter one.. she was so early tt we even had time for sum prayers.. so i prayed for meself, shell n
him.. hope we all do well..
going home tt time there was a HEAVY RAIN.. ARGH!!! den when i reached home.. i was telling every1 tt i wun hav to touch chi eva again!!!! not tt i hate it a lot but juz tt i dun lyk it.. yea! no chi for e rest of mr life.. muhahahha...
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