oh mianz.. tt bk rawks.. really it rawks.. beta than any romance movie/show mianz.. though it's a bit lyk casper.. falling in luv wif a ghost..
oh mianz.. can't believe no-story-bk-muz-do-hw me can spend 3 hrs sticking my butt on e chair n reading.. n i oni borrowed it dis aftnoon lohz.. oh mainz damn nice!!!
imagine falling in luv wif dis hottie wif washboard abs.. oh mianz.. him fighting a guy hu irriates.. him sitting by ur bedside holding ur hand n stroking it .. him KISSING u.. oh mianz.. rawkz.. i'm not saying tt tt r yellow stuffs inside.. in fact it's PINK.. sweet pink!
it's e bk fr e same series of mediator i tok abt earlier.. completely addicted gonna read e whole series!!
Suze said 'well, don't feel e same way i do abt u..' n guess wad Jesse said.. 'u r wrong' oh mianz.. ok not tt u noe anything abt suze n jesse.. it was wad i expected 'him' to say if i eva say tt to him but guess tt oni happens in my dreamz..
~^*^~wElL, gUeSs u dUn fEeL e sAmE wAy i dO aBt u~^*^~
reports bks truly hav a remarkable effect.. (at least beta than marks on test papers..) they INSPIRE u to work harder.. marks(even red ones) on papers dun seem to wake me up.. numb i guessed.. but when i saw my results in my report bk n compared it to e previous results, it was lyk i got dis slap in e face telling me to wake up! walau!! dropped so much.. used to b 8 now 12.. used to b 16 now 24.. used to b 75 now 71.. used to b 9 now 10.. HAIZ~ partly bcoz of all e emotional stuff i've been facing lahz.. sad..=(
mrs Howard aso came to tok to us todae.. felt inspired by her words.. say muz hav study grps.. but me wif e ppl in dis class.. not possible.. coz i feel tt 4/1s r a bit selfish.. but i hope to form study grp wif them but dun tink possible.. haiz~ nveless stil muz work harder durin e holi.. 4get abt all e toopid prob n cannot slack liaoz.. KEMPATEH!!
~^*^~dIsApPiOnTeD.rEgReTtEd.iNsPiReD~^*^~
today's a damn nice n happy day.. coz i finally got over my fear of him.. i dun hav to avoid him liaoz.. i can even tok to him!!! hahaz.. wahoo!!! NICE NICE DAY!
muz really thx ostaf.. actually i tot tt he wld b eva willing to stay coz can c her mahz.. but it din turn out tt way.. he was so egar to go home.. y?
i was sitting down reading my bk while he was bside me playing wif e tools.. whoa.. eva since tt time, we haven been dis close b4.. heart of coz pounding lyk mad lahz.. but my bk sorta calm me..
den we even tok!! at one pt we were so CLOSE tt i tink it was oni 5cm apart.. hahaz.. *thump!thump!*
he's so diff w/o his other frenz.. less crappier n more friendly.. he even agree to sum of my ideas.. which was quite rare! luv dis side of him.. wad a nice personaily.. hope dis e real him..
actually i tot e feeling for him wld soon disappear but it seems tt it has grown stronger.. oh no wad shld i do?!
~^*^~u R v dEaR tO mE I hOpE U nOe iT's tRuE~^*^~
aiya todae scoccer kip kena hand ball.. haiz~ attacking skills aso v lan.. lian lei e whole team.. SORRY!
tt toopid sia comment tt my dog bk CHARDISH.. shit her.. ok ecover is a bit chardish but not e content!!! haven she heard of NV JUDGE A BK BY IT'S COVER!!! damn her!
haiz~ todae no cca.. coz sum ppl got flashcard.. but fri stil hav n it's e announcing of results!
haiz~ lotsa holi hw n hav to go back to sch for lessons sianz.. dunno when can go extract my wisdom teeth.. hurt lots.. i dun wanna go sch can't tok..
~^*^~lEt Me b a bRiGhT sTrIpE iN e rAiNbOw oF uR lIfE~^*^~
oh mianz.. i fianlly understand y quan ming luv scoccer so much.. it's damn fun lohz.. played durin pe todae.. wif a whole bunch of gals & a handful of guys.. of coz e gals were lyk screaming thruout while e guys r lyk -_-".. hahaz..
haiz~ it's another FATEFUL day.. spotted him at e bus stop going up 97(which happen to b e bus i was going to take..) den i decided to take e next one.. hu knows e 2 buses arrived at e interchange at e SAME TIME!! fate? hu noes.. i was going to take e same mrt as him lohz.. but i TWISTED FATE n went to popular instead so in e end din take same train..
tink e reason tt disstracted me fr smsing him these days is dis The Mediator series by Jenny Carroll(i actually finish a 243-pg bk in one day!!! but partly bcoz i read HALF of it during foo lao shi's eva boring class) oh e story's abt Susannah hu's a mediator (sum1 hu communicates wif ghosts) havin a crush on dis hunky, charming, hot n not to mention caring GHOST named Jesse hu's huanting her bedrm.. i min wad more can u ask for.. a hunk in ur bedrm!! but mayb tt he cld b a bit more ALIVE?
"If u luv something, set it free. If it was meant to be, it wld cum back to u" dis is sth found in e bk tt Suze disagreed wif.. me too support her view.. it's simply not tt easy to let go..
~^*^~i wAs hEre, u wEre tHeRe iT tOrE a hOle iN mY hEaRt.. a BIG hOle..~^*^~
got a real suprise dis morn when sz popped in n gave me e duckie badge.. so nice of her!!! real cute! (i min e bagde) hahaz.. thanx lots.. shou zhen.. real nice n fits me too!! hahaz.. great fren to tink of me even when u r shopping.. ^-^
i'm starting to get use to life w/o smsing him.. haiz~ hav e itch to but nth to tok abt.. so rather not lohz.. but i miss tokin to him.. haiz~ a bit moa dun horz.. i aso miss them.. seldom get together liaoz..(esp so sft inno ended) haiz~ life is so meaningless..
oh below is sth taken fr e bk i was reading: Living With Dogs
Slowing ourselves down to walk an old dog can open up a new world of impressions. Where once we rushed past the past the familar signposts that marked a route taken a thousand times, how we savour them in finer detail,see a thousand things we never saw. One day an empty patch of ground sprouts green. The next day it has grown an inch. Another day, another inch; day by day developing into a tall study weed with spiky leaves; purple flowers blossom, shine then fade; petals disppearing one by one; the stem drops, withers, drops to the ground,drys and brown, crumble and decay. The wind has scattered the debris, the ground is bare again...
nice bk.. a bit heavy esp when e owners face e last stage of their dog's life.. nearly cried.. so touching.. haiz~ but oni a dogperson will appreicate it.. i'm sure i'm one!
~^*^~sImPlIcItY, aCcEpTaNcE, cArInG, cOoPeRaTiOn & tRuSt--QuAlItIeS oF a dOg~^*^~
cca starts today!!! hahaz.. but oni left 1 more session.. *sadz* luv it so much.. todae had e election.. had sum UNEXPECTED results.. nv knew he was SO POPULAR.. haiz~ now it's oni up to e teachers.. gonna cum back n c e disaster he wld create aft i grad..*evil laugh* really enjoyed todae.. e feeling of being wif frenz n getting home late is so wonderful.. but EVERYTHING's gonna end soon.. yes.. EVERYTHING!!!
ok.. i admit it.. i am avoiding him.. but he's cleary not avoiding me lohz.. so y shld i avoid him? i dunno lehz.. i tried to act as normal lahz.. but guess everyone can c thru it.. did tok a little to him n got close to him.. but my heart juz thundered away..
~^*^~i'Ve fOuNd pPl tt pUt a sMiLe oN mY fAcE.. ThEy'vE fIlLed tt eMpTy sPaCe~^*^~
got back all my results liaoz.. SUX mianz.. though i din fail any subj it stil sux.. was most disappointed wif ss.. 26! wad mark is tt.. tot cld get an A2 at least coz geo high mahz.. haiz~ nx big disappointment was maths.. both maths.. expected an 80 but turned out to b oni 75+ wif 'COPY WRONGLY' n 'CARELESS' written on amaths paper.. wif a L1R5 of 11 where can i go?! haiz~ life sux..
tml cca will start.. haiz~ life is more interesting wif a cca lohz.. cca is interesting not bcoz of e activities but bcoz of e ppl.. e 'frenz' i hav.. e frenship is v hard to sustain esp we r in diff classes lohz.. but i truly hope tt even aft we step down we stil cld b FRENZ.. my life is no fun w/o u all.. cum back to me..
~^*^~i wILl wAiT tIl u R rEaDy n oUr fRiEnDsHiP cAn gO fOuRtH~^*^~
oh yea!!! e exams r finally officially OVER!! actually today wanna go bowling wif e 2/4 gang but since sz n jun all not going i aso dun wanna go liaoz.. haiz~ tink tt upset shee yong.. *guilty* end up me n aileen went clementi mankan.. den aft tt i went lib..
actually wanna borrow sum STORY books but ended up borrowing DOG ENCYCLOPEDIA!! coz discovered dis wonderful 'Pets n animals' care' section @ CCK.. hahaz.. now i'm reading all abt dogs oni..=D
haiz~ tml gonna get back papers liaoz.. (e worse part of an exam is actually getting back e papers!) sum class olreadi got back maths today! chia say until lyk every1 failed liddat.. n tt pandian.. STRIAGHT AFT hand up paper1 giv us anw.. (got 7 wrong!!!x_x) he aso say we v lousy lahz.. n even suan sum classes in front of every1.. felt sorry for them.. aft lookin thru e anw tink stil can pass lahz.. but i still hope to at least get an A2 den pandian wun suan me.. hahaz!
heyz.. he cut hair liaoz.. nice-short fridge wif a v UNIQUE slope.. hahaz.. fri cca gonna start liaoz.. hope everything'll b back to e old times..
~^*^~nO mAtTeR wAd e ReSuLtS r.. cOnT tO wOrK hArDeR n sTaY hApPy aLwAeS!!~^*^~
wohoo.. caught harry potter trailer dis morning.. hahaz.. went MAD!!! really great! i wanna watch it..can't wait till e 4 of June.. Harry Potter n e Prisoners of Azkaban.. oh yea!!
did everyone catch a glimpse of e beautiful sunset dis evening? wa.. it's simply beatiful lohz.. it was
orange a v nice colour.. oh mianz..i tot it was rare so i made a wish.. actually 3 wishes but all abt e same thing.. hahaz.. dun say it out lest it dun cum true.. ^_^
~^*^~pLz mAkE mY wIsH cUm TrUe~^*^~
yeah! finally last paper.. not really last paper lahz.. nx wk all mcq mahz.. olreadi studied thru for paper 2 liaoz.. so i SLACKED e whole day thru.. hahaz.. went for a swim n fixed 1/10 of me puzzle(great sense of acheivement lohz.. hahax)but tml hav to start studying again liaoz.. haiz~ dis is life..
discovered a GREAT BIG secret.. actually a cheerful guy can hav sooo much trouble- family+relationships.. haiz~ but his relationship prob not as bad as mine.. 1 advice for him dun confess til u r really sure.. i din min to go into his blog lohz.. juz anihow type den BINGO!!! tt's his blog add.. haiz~ for now can oni pretend tt i dunno..
i'm so confused now.. shld i giv up on him??? todae morning i'll hav to return ananab maths text.. den hav to walk to e back mahz.. den i saw him there tokin to hw den i dun dare go over.. in e end ask sum1 to pass e text back to ananab.. dunno wad cum over me todae.. i jing ran ask her(e person he lyk) whether if she going chalet.. i was wishing tt she wldn't den i hav no nid to suffer in agony but i ended up askin her to go.. guess i oni wan him to b happy ba.. toopid me
there r 2 type of ppl in dis world.. one u lyk but dun lyk u.. e other lyk u but du dun lyk him.. which one wld u choose? actually there's dis guy he's giving v obivous hints.. thru sms.. tt's wad i tink lohz.. no guy has eva say me ke ai except him.. no guy wld always sent sweet msg wheneva i'm sad.. no guy wld try his BEST to cheer me up when i cry.. though i always look him up for advices, i dun hav e feeling for him.. i'm scared.. scared tt one day he wld confess.. den he'll end up lyk another me..
i dun wan him to suffer dis turmoil.. haiz~ y can't e person u lyk lyk u too?
~^*^~mAkInG cHoIcEs~^*^~
haiz~ everybody's griefing over their results.. 1st aileen den jing ngei.. haiz~ i wish i cld do sth to make them feel beta.. actually i dun hav much confidence in my papers too.. but juz let it b lohz.. finish liaoz wad can u do.. haiz~ results aren't everything u noe there r stil many things to enjoy in life!! it's not till last nov tt i realise dis pt.. coz i found frenz.. great frenz (i dunno if they stil r) they coloured my life.. tt was one time i felt even more happy den getting full marks for maths..
we had so much fun together.. but tt was in e past..
frenz.. let not grief over our bad results.. juz work harder nx time k? it's not e end of e world ritez.. stil hav 6 mths more mahz.. meanwhile, treasure e ppl ard u n e memories of dis sch..
..tAkE tImE tO sMelL e FlOwErS..
todae study chem till sianz.. took out me diary.. e funny thing is my view of him was changing fr KENASAI >OK >CUTE>SUPER CUTE.. hahaz.. last time i was lyk msg him everyday lohz.. but eva since den we've got nth to tok abt liaoz.. haiz~ sad.. i wonder wad we used to tok abt.. now i can't find anything to tok to him abt.. or rather i wanna save sum embrassment.. haiz~ i wished we were lyk b4..
aso found out tt e contents of me diary not oni hav him but aso hav 3 other guys.. yuhui,jingngei n hengwei.. every entry's abt them lohz.. we used to spend soooo much time together esp in e dec holis.. oh mianz.. tt time i was even tinkin tt they r e angels of my life n tt i've found my 'GODSENT' frenz.. they make my world go round mianz.. once, i tot our frenship was strong.. once, i tot e bond will nv b broken.. once, i tot they were my best of frenz.. but now time has proven everything wrong.. mayb it's bcoz of exams or bcoz inno ended lahz.. we stopped hanging out together n even stopped tokin to each other.. mayb it's oni me.. mayb it's i tink too much.. mayb they r stil my frenz.. but shldn't frenz b supporting n encouragin each other.. i've got none of tt.. if u dun wanna make me tink tt it's olreadi e end den do sth to not make me tink so!!!!! haiz~ so sad.. todae shee yong asked if wanna go 2/4 bowling aft exams.. but i din promise him tt i wld go coz i tot tt e grp of us cld go out together.. but judging fr wad izzit now i dunno.. I CAN'T HELP DOUBTING OUR FRENSHIP!! CAN U DO STH TO CLEAR TT DOUBT?!
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arhx.. tml ENG n amaths.. did nth for eng.. let it ROT!!! for amaths actually i tot oni nid revise abit.. in e end i found lotsa things i still dunno so kip doin.. esp integration n diff.. confusing mianz.. noe how to do one den 4got abt e other.. in e end oni left time for me to revise 1 chapt of chem..
haiz~ dunno y i apologised to him.. told him i was blabbering nonsense e other day.. aso dunno wad i was doin.. mayb bcoz ananab say i might hav offended him.. i dun wan him to b angry so i apologise lohz.. a bit TOOPID ritez.. ya.. i noe.. he said he dun rmb liaoz so how to 4get.. dunno true anot?! it wld b best if he 4gets tt i told him tt i lyk him.. these few days hav e urge to msg him but dun dare to c his reply.. a day dun c his msg lyk v funny.. so i msg liaoz den i SWITCHED OFF me fone.. walua tink of it i v TOOPID lohz.. a complete IDIOT.. switch off liaoz stil can receive ritez.. silly me.. wad am i doin?
~^*^~i'M fAllINg hEaD oVeR hEeLs fOr u ~^*^~
i told my feelings todae.. actually he olreadi noe.. n i olreadi noe he has sumone in mind.. guess i dun wanna giv up lohz.. i found myself avoiding him but i juz kip bumping into him.. FATE?? i dunno.. i juz dun wan e both of us to feel awkward.. tt's i tried to kip a distance.. i can oni tok to him thru sms lohz.. he said tt we stil cld b frenz but i noe it's not gonna b e same.. feel tt i'm soooo toopid fall for a guy which is neither shuai or cares for me.. he oni cares for her n he's even using her quotes.. '..dots..da..dat..' CAN U JUZ B URSELF?!?!?!
..can't hold back my feelings for you..
